Friday, July 9, 2010

A letter to my lost love

Dear xxx,

I’m not the one which I used to be earlier. Wandering around places, chitchatting with friends has always been my business. I was a careless kite that crosses all limits without knowing its destination. Isn’t it you who changed the way things were? Didn’t you say, “You’re the world for me.”? Now my world is dark and everyone in it is asleep. I’ve really got no one to share my feelings, no one to pat me and say, ”She’ll be back”. The actual reason for my loneliness is that I never shared my hard times with anyone. God!! I’m running out of companions. Wait a minute, is this really me? Where is that charm in the atmosphere when I crack cheesy, laugh-out-loud jokes.

Those 19 years without you were carefree, adventurous, active and these 3 years with you have been heavenly, joyful and eye opening. I really felt like I was reborn, just like new blood gushing out of my veins. I enjoyed your company, rejoiced your hugs, re-invented me in your kisses and became a child in your care. Am I good to you? Do you still love me the same way you did years back? Did I disappoint you in anyway? Why is that I’ve become possessive about you? Why is that I cry inside when I play with my memories? Is it because those would never happen again? And why am I asking hell lot of questions to myself? Well, that’s what my problem is all about.

I just want to tell you that I love you the same way I did when we first met. My love for you would never drop. May be you would look back someday and feel that I’m the best you’ve ever had in your life but I don’t know whether I would be available to rejoice that moment again. They say that angels would come down someday. I’ve already seen one, my EARTH ANGEL.

your loving, Vanilla Heart